Talking things over

     Happy Valentine's Day.  I suppose ironically, I couldn't be in a better place to be celebrating "love" even though I don't buy into the whole concept of there being ONE special day to be nice to your significant other.  I feel that every day should be a day where you celebrate your partner, not just the day hallmark tells you to purchase flowers or chocolate.  Besides, I think that both of those are horrid ways to celebrate "lasting love" as flowers die and chocolate either melts, gets eaten, or goes bad.  Not exactly the message that I would want to send someone I felt I had a long term shot with.
     Besides, every day has felt like Valentine's Day since I got here.  I haven't been here long but we've been really in tune with each other, and being together just feels "right."  It's weird, though, because in spite of the fact that we have known each other for so long, we haven't spent that much time together over the years... yet being together feels as though we've never been apart.  From the moment we hugged at the airport, it feels as though emotions are bubbling like crazy and my heart keeps beating fast with anticipation and excitement.  Of what, I don't quite know yet but I'm sure we'll find out.
     Last night was pretty intense.  We stayed up for hours talking about the past, present, and future.  Yes, OUR future.   I guess the problem with me had always been that I had a child (ultimately, children) and he wasn't sure if that was something that he wanted/was ready for. But after talking about things ad nauseum, we came to the conclusion that we were both interested in trying to see if we could make a relationship work and that sometime down the road, the girls and I could consider moving across the country to live closer to him.  I suppose that we will figure things out as time passes and go from there.  All I know is that I am really content with the outcome and feel kind of silly that we didn't realize these things earlier.  The fact is, though, that had things happened differently, who knows - we could have been each other's mistakes.  We've both grown so much from what we've experienced in life and we are better people because of it.  (And it doesn't hurt that we've known each other for the majority of our lives!!!) I'm pretty certain that everything had to happen in the order it did - regardless of how silly we might feel now.
     I don't know where, exactly, this is going but I hope for the best and sincerely feel that we can make it work - provided that we both put in the effort.